Finally added a custom HTML page to my Tumblr…
British. Author between books. Napping between meals. Blogging between hangovers. Christian between temptations. An ex-atheist and gentleman to boot!
When I look at my life it’s often impossible to see the big picture – I just recall fragments from the past. These scattered fragments I see are snapshots of the mournful and difficult times. They are multitude. They are too many. At times I think far too many than is fair.
It becomes difficult to focus on anything but the past pain, loss and sorrow during self-indulgent, self-pitying, poor me… poor me… pour me another drink days. Innumerable tiny islands of grief float upon a life that seems as dark and vast as any disconsolate sea.
But these fragments aren’t imagined islands; they’re nothing so grand. They are, however, moth holes in thick, black fabric which, when held up to the window of life, obscures the light almost in totality. What little illumination that remains is forced to shine through the damage inflicted by a thousand tiny insect-incisor nibbles; accentuating them, exaggerating them, making them seem much bigger than they have any right to be.
I try not to dwell upon the past, but sometimes it’s very difficult. I fear that one day that black drape will envelope me entirely.
Online and in the world at large I’ve been all-but a recluse these past few months because – despite my best efforts in faith – I’ve spent too much time staring at the illuminated moth holes that are shotgun-peppered throughout the pitch-black blind. In doing so I have succumbed to my old fear of men and suffered a terrible and lengthy bout of my indigestion of the brain. I’ve ignored obligations, let friends down, missed deadlines, spurned all company, been thoroughly unproductive and utterly unreliable.
I’ve also entirely failed to appreciate the bleedin’ obvious until the Holy Spirit showed me this truth in a dream earlier today;
That black blind is a drape of my own tailoring.
And as I hold it up to the window of my life the brilliance it obscures is the Light of Christ.
I need to tear down the curtain, throw open the window once more and let the light shine in. It is an irrational fear of the past that too often brings me to my knees…
…but at least today I will remember to pray while I’m down there.
 My pseudo-fictional “GIVEN – A Very Personal Apocalypse” covers the subject with – some say – far too much candour and detail. I’d love you to buy, borrow or steal a copy in paperback or for Kindle. Amazon – ISBN: 1475164866 and ASIN: B007Q296GE
Thanks for following; I'll try to grab the kindle copy of your book sometime to check it out - although I confess I have several already to read and mainly read online instead of books - But sounds interesting and you have done a great job with the hints here and the youtube peaking interest.. Hope things are going well for you.. I pray God Blesses you, not just "in general" as some say, but blesses you so that you can spend your time and talents furthering God's will / God's Kingdom on Earth
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Thank you for your kind words, and thank you also for maintaining such a great Tumblr blog yourself.
I’m not on Tumblr to explicitly publicise/promote/flog my book – there are plenty of other places online to do that – but I’ll mention it from time to time because it’s been such a large part of my life this past year, and still is. And, yes, like you I have an ever-growing backlog of “books-I-must-read-soon” - I’ve had to swear off buying any more for a month-or-two at least!
I’m heartened and blessed by your interest in my novel; It’s my testimony of how The Holy Spirit can transform even the most embittered, entrenched, misanthropic and atheistic man, and I wish I could just give the work away to all and any who are interested (particularly to open-minded non-theists and seeking secularists) but, like most other people, I have a livelihood to make and rent to pay.
(just between you and me… and whoever else reads this post)
…I hope to make the Kindle version available for free for a limited time when the softcover/paperback version is released.
I pray that Our Heavenly Father continues to bless you and all the outstanding work you do in His name, here on Tumblr and beyond.
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